Bless my hope that it may never waver.
Bless my faith whatever befalls.
Bless my love to overcome all.
I currently have so many options laid out for me. Although, I can’t bring myself to prioritize what’s best for me, or bring my heart to tell me what I want the most.
Should I move to Florida? I’d get a promotion, with better pay, and I’d be working with my favorite manager who loves me. I’d live in a bigger place, paying half the rent I’m paying for now, and with the good money I’m making, I could possibly get my dream car, or maybe even a bike. School’s more affordable there too. And they have an emergency evacuation plan in case of a zombie apocalypse lol. I’d be in the Sunshine State, by the beach, by Disney World.. oh the life.
Should I move to New York? I’d be living in a loft in Manhattan with my best friend Steph. I could go to school at any of my dream schools, FIT, NYU, or Colombia University. I got an offer to come back to Forever 21 in Union Square as a salaried manager with 6 people working under me. It would be a big enough move that I could get out of Jersey, but still be close by to home. NY is home.
Or should I stay in NJ? I can live comfortably in this apartment, and move into my own once Courtney moves out in November. I can continue at Kean University; Even though it doesn’t really do anything for me, it’s practical. And affordable. I can continue at Calvin Klein and work my ass off once I get that promotion. I can continue saving up, while living a comfortable life, preparing for my next step.
I want to go to school. I want to work my ass off and make something of myself. I think I just need to let go of CK. As great as I feel there, I know I’m capable of so much more. I’ve been selling myself short when I know I can do anything and everything in this world. I want to dance, sing, act, play every instrument, start my own business, help other business owners, go to beauty school, get my cosmotology license, get my bartending license, my motorcylce license, be a photographer, be a flight attendant, be a teacher.. and so much more. I’m gonna do it all, even if it kills me. Honestly, I just want a good business school with a decent dance program.
I just wanna dance. and paint shit.
